Sunday, February 17, 2013♥
currently the time now is 12.25am and my mood wasn't very good and I need some place to vent all my so call anger and talk my heart out but i'm gonna say what really happen.
this timing is not too late for a lot of people and I believe there are people just on their way out to party right? haha. and me with someone but I'm no different to alone. I am sad now and not quite sure what to do or what can I do to cheer myself up. keep wanting to find things entertain myself but seriously there is nothing I can do. my phone got problem and keep on restarting like a mad phone. wanna watch tv but watching alone is damn fuxking pathetic you know? and using com.. man ~ I just really have nothing to do.
I'm usually not a person that will put me and my boyf quarrel stuff on blog. or should I say only my currently boyf? ok never mind, because he doesn't like it and I never did. tho I feel that it's nothing big and don't have to care what others will think because you didn't do it then don't be afraid to let others say it and if you did it and then again why afraid to let others know it? don't want others to know or see it then don't do it. that's just simply an easy thing. ain't it? and of cause people will say if you didn't write it out how will people leave comment? YA, but don't be afraid to let other know it if you dare to do it.
I don't you but myself. I blame myself for thinking too much and asking too much. it's simple if you don't like me to ask. just tell me you don't like or want me to ask and I'll stop. for the current question or in future. just a sentence and will stop me from asking anymore because I remember everything you told me but to let you know everything that I wanted to know and yet I did not ask will last in my heart for a very long time, it may last forever it may last few day, weeks, months or year. or just a few sec but of cause when something remind me and I have to take time forgetting it again. I just wanna know, am I wrong to ask? everything seem to turn out to be my fault. you can be angry by the way how I asked but I have already told you, I'm just joking and if you are so so serious then I'll tell you sorry but all I want was to know why and can I ask? do I have the right to ask?
I wish I can kick, punch, hit, slap, scream or shout right at your face to make you wake up and talk everything clear right away. in stead I use a very gentle way by asking you 'are you going to sleep soon' and 'are you very tired' and both answer I receive was yes and did not say anything. tho after that you did ask me what happen after seeing me sitting down looking outside but at that time I really don't wanna talk about it anymore. I was really upset after everything you are still able to sleep but I know if this is what the reason I gave you, sure you will say after the long day you are very tired already. maybe I'm selfish but to me I just feel that even if we quarrel or any other stuff you wouldn't able to have a good rest. I don't know la, I mean if it was me I won't able to sleep well unless I know the person is really ok already even I'm very very tired. ok fine, you are not me so I accept the fact.
after every unhappy stuff, I still love who you are and that's why I never left.
哭过就没事了
DRAW ME CLOSE TO YOU & NEVER LET ME GO.
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