Sunday, February 17, 2013♥
currently the time now is 12.25am and my mood wasn't very good and I need some place to vent all my so call anger and talk my heart out but i'm gonna say what really happen.
this timing is not too late for a lot of people and I believe there are people just on their way out to party right? haha. and me with someone but I'm no different to alone. I am sad now and not quite sure what to do or what can I do to cheer myself up. keep wanting to find things entertain myself but seriously there is nothing I can do. my phone got problem and keep on restarting like a mad phone. wanna watch tv but watching alone is damn fuxking pathetic you know? and using com.. man ~ I just really have nothing to do.
I'm usually not a person that will put me and my boyf quarrel stuff on blog. or should I say only my currently boyf? ok never mind, because he doesn't like it and I never did. tho I feel that it's nothing big and don't have to care what others will think because you didn't do it then don't be afraid to let others say it and if you did it and then again why afraid to let others know it? don't want others to know or see it then don't do it. that's just simply an easy thing. ain't it? and of cause people will say if you didn't write it out how will people leave comment? YA, but don't be afraid to let other know it if you dare to do it.
I don't you but myself. I blame myself for thinking too much and asking too much. it's simple if you don't like me to ask. just tell me you don't like or want me to ask and I'll stop. for the current question or in future. just a sentence and will stop me from asking anymore because I remember everything you told me but to let you know everything that I wanted to know and yet I did not ask will last in my heart for a very long time, it may last forever it may last few day, weeks, months or year. or just a few sec but of cause when something remind me and I have to take time forgetting it again. I just wanna know, am I wrong to ask? everything seem to turn out to be my fault. you can be angry by the way how I asked but I have already told you, I'm just joking and if you are so so serious then I'll tell you sorry but all I want was to know why and can I ask? do I have the right to ask?
I wish I can kick, punch, hit, slap, scream or shout right at your face to make you wake up and talk everything clear right away. in stead I use a very gentle way by asking you 'are you going to sleep soon' and 'are you very tired' and both answer I receive was yes and did not say anything. tho after that you did ask me what happen after seeing me sitting down looking outside but at that time I really don't wanna talk about it anymore. I was really upset after everything you are still able to sleep but I know if this is what the reason I gave you, sure you will say after the long day you are very tired already. maybe I'm selfish but to me I just feel that even if we quarrel or any other stuff you wouldn't able to have a good rest. I don't know la, I mean if it was me I won't able to sleep well unless I know the person is really ok already even I'm very very tired. ok fine, you are not me so I accept the fact.
after every unhappy stuff, I still love who you are and that's why I never left.
哭过就没事了
DRAW ME CLOSE TO YOU & NEVER LET ME GO.
Blogged @ 1:17 AM
Friday, February 15, 2013♥
this photo wasn't taken yesterday, it was taken on chinese new year.
tho yesterday was valentine day but still we didn't took any photo. haha. don't need find it weird if you don't know me well enough. I'm not those type of person will celebrate any days. include my birthday. :) I find it so no point to celebrate those day. love your mummy then everyday is mother day, love your daddy then everyday is father day. love your grandparents everyday is grandparents day. love your love ones everyday is valentine day and of cause I love myself so much everyday is my birthday if I want. no offence but I just don't like to have the day same with anyone else just like I don't like to have the same thing with other people. I mean of cause in this world you sure will have at least one thing same with someone right just like name. but this is me, some more a day that everyone celebrate. look so boring to me.
after k2 I really wanna celebrate anything. don't know is it because of what my mummy told me. I never celebrated my birthday since I went to primary school and was really sad at that time and asked mummy why no one celebrated for me and mummy told me birthday is just a day. only because I was born on that day and made it a special day if not to anybody else it's just a normal day. after what mummy said I felt even worst because before that she will celebrate it for me. and as I grow I stop celebrating "special" day. but of cause I celebrate some of my birthday la, I think from sec 3 on wards?
really wanna thanks my currently bf for everything. :) to anyone valentine day or anniversary may be a special day and I did not wanna celebrate it but still he is not mad, sad nor complaining anything about it. fyi I didn't not celebrate any anniversary with any other ex not only to him. so.. we didn't celebrate it yesterday ! haha. and that include no present. some of you'll will think never celebrate at least also buy present ma right but like I say if I want everyday is valentine day why must celebrate it with the world? ya, like that then got the mood right? but so stupid right most people celebrate it with their another half only. by the way I'm not those people that like my parents or boyfriend to spent money on my unless is food then I'm really ok with it. haha. give me hello kitty present? I rather you buy me good food and of cause we did go eat yesterday, my fav seafood. yum yum ! :) anyway those guy that buy for me hello kitty before I just wanna say it really waste your money. for the whole year, I put there didn't touch it. spring clearing time? mummy ask me throw all away. every year mummy complaining that it's becoming more and wanna throw away. then I be very selfish, don't wanna throw, don't wanna sell and don't wanna give other people. so this year mummy put all in one big trolley some put in plastic bag at the side of my house and some in the store room. you see? stand place leh, next time give some soft toys that I don't like then maybe keep few months can throw already if not like that how?!
and one more thing I don't like about valentine day, everyone is giving the same thing and receiving the same thing ! see how stupid right?! fyi I'm not jealous that I don't received those stuff or anything I just don't like the feeling that almost everyone couple walking around with flower. by the way I'm not a flower person. I don't like flower but of cause I love how my bf send me a surprise flower at my door when he is working but still I will reject the flower is it's my birthday, valentine day or any day. I was happy at that time because it wasn't any special day. last sat me and sheena was just saying that we don't like receiving flowers from guy and valentine day so many people receive flower. no offence to people that receive or giving flower really no offence but they look like going sao moo. haha. so sorry but it look really like. kk not gonna pour cold water on them it's sweet, loving and etc to get something for your love one but flower, solf toys and chocolate is so outdated already. ya I know, at least have the heart. ok say say whatever you'll like if I offend you but I'm just now a flower person so I think giving flower is the most stupid thing that you can think of. hand make something then is really sweet. saw jasmine cousin hand made a poker card thing and it's really very sweet. :) that kind if thing then I will envy ma. scroll down my fb and twitter and it's all flower and flower, not flower jiu is flower. you see sian or not. worst still saw people receiving the same flower. it's like same guy giving to two girl. ahahaha.
ok, enough of all my rubbish. don't mind what I say. as long as your other half love you by his/her heart receiving what is not a matter at all. and don't because it's valentine day then you spent it well, remember any other day also a valentine day if you want it to. wish all the couple out there happy valentine day and may you all last long long, argue can but no quarrel and fight and love each other more as each day pass. and of cause wish me and my bf will love each other and not leave till the end of life :)
DRAW ME CLOSE TO YOU & NEVER LET ME GO.
Blogged @ 12:24 PM
Monday, February 11, 2013♥
Jan 31 me and precious went to Thailand and came back on the 3 of Feb. but today i'm not gonna talk about that first cause all the photo are in my camera.
after I came back went to meet xiuting and jasmine at kovan for supper. actually peihan was suppose to meet us but end up she never came. :( it's ok we shall meet up again soon. we had so much laughter thanks to jasmine and xiuting. we talk about our past and makes me realize we change so so much. but one thing that never change and that's our friendship. tho we miss out someone but still .. I don't hate just that I feel it's better not to be friend anymore. ok Chinese new year shall not say anything sad. :)
anyway back to today's topic. the day before yesterday was the day that Chinese people eat their reunion dinner and we went to ahma house for the first time after so so so, so many years. and yesterday went to ahma house bainian and later at night love came to join me then head to love's friend house. only sam and pat turn up and not weijie some more he is the one say it. went home at around 3 plus and reach home on 4am leaving sam and pat there guess they wanna fan ben cause we'll lose alot.
today didn't go anywhere. actually every year 2nd day of Chinese new year we are suppose to go our big uncle house but this year never go due to some problem and mummy doesn't wanna see them so less take a few red packet. sian lo I want take many many before I cannot take anymore. haha. anyway my small uncle came to my house today to bai nian. oh ! suddenly remember something very funny.
(last night on the way home)
mummy : tomorrow ah gu coming our house
we all : which ah gu?
mummy : David ah gu lo.
me : David ah gu is the no child one right?
jiejie : every time tell us ah gu, how we know is which ah gu.
mummy : xiao gu lo.
daddy : then another one is er gu.
me : like that then we easy to remember which one is who ma.
jiejie : ya lo, every time say ah gu then we need to ask who.
me : ya la. from small we always need to ask when you say ah gu.
mummy : no hor ! another one is not er gu hor, er gu is another one.
(by the way my mummy have 13 siblings and she the 10)
mummy : that ah gu is the 11 then you'll wanna call chap yi gu meh?!
(we all laugh)
me : iya anyway we only know 3 ah gu just call the big one dao gu, small one xiao gu then the 11th we call er gu lo. also not much different.
mummy : just call ah gu can already la.
so funny. lucky now don't have people give birth to so many already. the most I see also 3 only. next time I at least also want a 2 I want Chinese new year alot people celebrate together.
today sure gonna be a boring day cause whole day at home. :( later jiejie friend coming, hope I can play with them. haha. anyway you guys know tonight is what day ma?! unleash yourself techno party ! anyone wanna go? last min also can just give me a call and remember to bring more people go so that I can give out guestlist. :) and not to forget party with me ! :) see you guys tonight and happy chinese new year everyone !
DRAW ME CLOSE TO YOU & NEVER LET ME GO.
Blogged @ 12:28 PM
