Tuesday, September 27, 2011♥
my uncle is in A&E now and i'm right here sitting down doing nothing.
i know even if i go down now i can't get to see him also.
guess people that always read my blog will know which uncle i referring to.
the uncle i always mention about since i was young.
like after that time finally nothing already and now again.
i was super worry, super scare.
although i don't remember everything at that time, trying to reflect thing but everything look so blur.
but i do remember how he hold my hand, the smile,,
my hand was his fav..
i really hope he remember who i am.
all i can do now is to wait, wait wait and wait.
i don't wanna wait !
maybe things are not as serious as i thought but who the hell won't get worry and anyhow think?!
i just wanna say treasure the loved one while they are still around.
don't wait till they are gone and you start to regret it, till then everything is too late.
i admit i was really afraid of him when i was young,
but who won't be afraid, he is a dan ki lehx, *don't know i got say wrong or not*
how would i know what is that when i was young.
awhile he is my uncle awhile he is a god?
awhile normal awhile jump like a child.
his house was full or god, and the whole living room is red.
tell me who of you are not afraid if you were a kids.
when i was older i stop seeing him not even on new year.
his condition wasn't getting any better but worst.
sometime i really regret running away from him when every time he wanted to him me.
now that i wanted to see him, he already don't remember who i am.
keep telling myself to stay strong, just like what bf told me.
no point crying, he won't get better even if i cry.
so much thing so much thing i wanted to say and share to you all.
trying to control my emotion, trying not to cry too.
i sometime i felt really stupid i wasn't that close with him, don't remember much thing in the past.
dislike or even hate him but why am i always crying when i heard his thing.
is it because of concern as a family or guilty and regret, never been good to him for once before?
hate the feeling, hate myself.
keep telling myself to stay strong, just like what bf told me.
no point crying, he won't get better even if i cry.
so much thing so much thing i wanted to say and share to you all.
trying to control my emotion, trying not to cry too.
i sometime i felt really stupid i wasn't that close with him, don't remember much thing in the past.
dislike or even hate him but why am i always crying when i heard his thing.
is it because of concern as a family or guilty and regret, never been good to him for once before?
hate the feeling, hate myself.
everything gonna be alright, right?
just like what you told me when i was young,
'not to be afraid, i am here with you'
DRAW ME CLOSE TO YOU & NEVER LET ME GO.
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